After a very loooong break, I'm back! :D I was meaning to revive the blog for some time now, but I just couldn't remember my username AND password (my fault, i know...).
There will be a significant change in the mood of my posts (as seen in my rewrite of some poems). I recently got married to the man of my dreams - the same person some older entries pertain to. My older posts border on bitterness and angst and I lack those emotions now (lucky lucky me!) so I decided to just post about anything and everything that comes to mind :)
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Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Monday, October 27, 2008
10th floor
I had a weird dream last night. I was scaling a 10-storey building. Yes, scaling... I know I could have just used the elevator, or even the stairs... but for some reason, I chose to scale the building. So, there I was, trying to climb to the 10th floor.
The first steps were very difficult. I kept on falling. But soon, I got the feel of it and later on, I felt myself moving up. I was on the 7th floor when realization hit me. It seemed to me that no matter how much more I climb, the distance between me and the 10th floor doesn't seem to change. I still remain to be in the 7th floor. I was faced with two choices. Should I give up, let go and just hope that after my fall from the 7th floor, I'd somehow manage to survive? I will surely get hurt - a lot - but there's still a chance of survival. Or should I keep on climbing and hope against hope that I can somehow close the distance between me and the top floor? Wouldn’t that be akin to blindly reaching for something? And what if I exhaust myself before I succeed in closing the gap? I will fall and completely break myself... by then, would I even have the energy to pick myself up?
I woke up before I got to deciding between the two. Somehow, I understand the dream now... but I still don't know which choice to take.
What crossed my mind were even more questions: why did I decide to scale that building? Well, given I really wanted to scale, why, oh why, did I pick that building to scale? Why didn't I opt for something lower to start with? Or why didn't I just choose a building whose top floor doesn't move away?!?
The first steps were very difficult. I kept on falling. But soon, I got the feel of it and later on, I felt myself moving up. I was on the 7th floor when realization hit me. It seemed to me that no matter how much more I climb, the distance between me and the 10th floor doesn't seem to change. I still remain to be in the 7th floor. I was faced with two choices. Should I give up, let go and just hope that after my fall from the 7th floor, I'd somehow manage to survive? I will surely get hurt - a lot - but there's still a chance of survival. Or should I keep on climbing and hope against hope that I can somehow close the distance between me and the top floor? Wouldn’t that be akin to blindly reaching for something? And what if I exhaust myself before I succeed in closing the gap? I will fall and completely break myself... by then, would I even have the energy to pick myself up?
I woke up before I got to deciding between the two. Somehow, I understand the dream now... but I still don't know which choice to take.
What crossed my mind were even more questions: why did I decide to scale that building? Well, given I really wanted to scale, why, oh why, did I pick that building to scale? Why didn't I opt for something lower to start with? Or why didn't I just choose a building whose top floor doesn't move away?!?
Saturday, August 9, 2008
...
I dreamt of flying
and of the thrill, awe, and excitement it gives
But no, I wasn't the one with the wings
I wasn't the one gliding through the clouds
I wasn't the one flying
for I am afraid of falling
I'm terrified of jumping
I'm afraid my wings won't flap
I fear all the uncertainties around me
Do I need to jump at a specific time?
Do I need to have a certain angle?
What if my calculations aren't correct?
What if the wind I'm counting on fails me?
Will I fall into oblivion?
I may never get to fly
For I am afraid of falling
And I am terrified of jumping
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Introducing Delusion :)
It is unfortunate that Delusion is not tall, dark and handsome. He is merely very tall, very dark and very handsome... but of course, this is also according to him :P
Delusion is a being with a world of his own. :) He is a man of few words... very few words... but numerous talents. I've known him for almost a decade now and I can attest to his genius :) (He can draw; He can write; He solves software and hardware problems like he's munching on some snacks! :D)... He has complete control and understanding of everything around him. For him, everything centers on him and him alone... but mind you, he isn't egotistic... just in certain aspects of his life :P
Miss Construed is a naturally sociable person. She has no problems dealing with all sorts of personalities.
Delusion fancies Miss Construed... a lot. Though he never admits it out loud, it is very eminent in how he talks about her all the time and how her every action affects him. But of course, only a few friends know this (those few friends have now probably doubled due to this post ... that is, if they realize who Delusion is :P). And Delusion, being true to his name, and loyal to his projected image, insists on the opposite...
In his world, Miss Construed is head-over-heels in love with him. She'd do anything to be near him. And now, their unexpected temporary separation is driving him nuts :D...
Delusion still can't admit (even to himself) his true feelings.. or probably, he, himself, isn't aware of it yet (fine, let's give him the benefit of the doubt:P). So he tries (stress on the word "tries") to divert his attention to other people... Miss FX, Miss Badminton, and Miss (es) ... nevermind :P (pardon the lack of creativity; I just don't know them well enough to know their names ... and since they're not Miss Construed, they only comprise around 10% (combined) of Delusion's stories :D) Stories of Delusion's interactions with them to follow (depending on how he'll react to this :P)
I've tried (unsuccessfully though) to make Delusion realize how he really feels towards Miss Construed and act before he loses the chance to do so. But he's very stubborn and he just won't listen to any other views (Yes Delusion, you are as stubborn as a mule! :P) Hopefully, those who know who Delusion is will help me convince him to take action ... fast! (or as suggested by a mutually close friend, at least before you go... *clues on Delusion's identity here!!!*) :P
So Delusion, get ready... your equally-stubborn friends will start badgering you :)
Delusion is a being with a world of his own. :) He is a man of few words... very few words... but numerous talents. I've known him for almost a decade now and I can attest to his genius :) (He can draw; He can write; He solves software and hardware problems like he's munching on some snacks! :D)... He has complete control and understanding of everything around him. For him, everything centers on him and him alone... but mind you, he isn't egotistic... just in certain aspects of his life :P
Miss Construed is a naturally sociable person. She has no problems dealing with all sorts of personalities.
Delusion fancies Miss Construed... a lot. Though he never admits it out loud, it is very eminent in how he talks about her all the time and how her every action affects him. But of course, only a few friends know this (those few friends have now probably doubled due to this post ... that is, if they realize who Delusion is :P). And Delusion, being true to his name, and loyal to his projected image, insists on the opposite...
In his world, Miss Construed is head-over-heels in love with him. She'd do anything to be near him. And now, their unexpected temporary separation is driving him nuts :D...
Delusion still can't admit (even to himself) his true feelings.. or probably, he, himself, isn't aware of it yet (fine, let's give him the benefit of the doubt:P). So he tries (stress on the word "tries") to divert his attention to other people... Miss FX, Miss Badminton, and Miss (es) ... nevermind :P (pardon the lack of creativity; I just don't know them well enough to know their names ... and since they're not Miss Construed, they only comprise around 10% (combined) of Delusion's stories :D) Stories of Delusion's interactions with them to follow (depending on how he'll react to this :P)
I've tried (unsuccessfully though) to make Delusion realize how he really feels towards Miss Construed and act before he loses the chance to do so. But he's very stubborn and he just won't listen to any other views (Yes Delusion, you are as stubborn as a mule! :P) Hopefully, those who know who Delusion is will help me convince him to take action ... fast! (or as suggested by a mutually close friend, at least before you go... *clues on Delusion's identity here!!!*) :P
So Delusion, get ready... your equally-stubborn friends will start badgering you :)
Thursday, May 15, 2008
bora hangover :D
I wanna go back (we all do :D) ... hehehe...
I've had a lot of fun and met new friends at the same time. Hopefully, we get to have a second (and third, fourth, etc.) trip :)
Tama nga si Roxy, travelling like this is addicting... Rox, kelan next hop? :)
Island hoppers, pics ha? :)
Note: pics to follow ... probably in my multiply site :)
kung me shakes na ganun lang sana dito... hehehe...
I've had a lot of fun and met new friends at the same time. Hopefully, we get to have a second (and third, fourth, etc.) trip :)
Tama nga si Roxy, travelling like this is addicting... Rox, kelan next hop? :)
Island hoppers, pics ha? :)
Note: pics to follow ... probably in my multiply site :)
kung me shakes na ganun lang sana dito... hehehe...
Friday, May 2, 2008
calling all lourdesians :)
We went to Pangasinan for 2 main reasons: 1) to attend Tita Elsie's birthday celebration and 2) to visit the Hundred Islands :)
Unfortunately, due to some risks involved (car had to be left somewhere overnight), we had to forego the plan of visiting said islands... we went to Covelandia Family Resort. The place was nice. (more on this in another entry)...
During Tita Elsie's birthday party however, we met lots of people, the most unforgettable being Fr. Bok. He's a parish priest of the Our Lady of Lourdes Parish in Salasa, Bugallon, Pangasinan. According to the signs in the church, it was founded in 1714 (could possibly be one of the oldest churches in the country) and is considered a National Shrine. However, I don't know if it's just me, but I've always tagged the phrase "National Shrine" with grandiose architecture and well-maintained interiors. This was not the case with the church we visited. The architecture is good but old age (and most possibly poor maintenance) probably took toll on the building. It still held traces of its former grandeur but it's a very far cry from the shrines here in Manila (some chapels here might even be better off than this). As per Fr. Bok, he and Tito Bob (Tita Elsie's husband... one of Papa's best friends) have been slowly restructuring the shrine. They've dug through the floorings and found antique tiles. (Former priests must have chosen to place new tiles on top of the old ones instead of removing them and then replacing with new ones.) They're prioritizing the church itself, unlike others (I choose not to name any) who opt to start off lavishing the priest's chambers, thus depleting the resources even before actual work on the church begins.
Fr. Bok told us he had lots of plans for the church and its parishioners. However, due to extreme lack of funds (they are situated in a place where people mostly rely on the church for their needs - and this is where most of their funds go to), they could not afford to actuate everything they have in mind...
I'd like to help and in my simple way, I'd try to... and I'd also like to call on people especially the Lourdesians (my sister is one and I believe she's already tried to inform her classmates) to help them in any way they can. A small thing to us may mean the world to them :)
View pics of the church here
Unfortunately, due to some risks involved (car had to be left somewhere overnight), we had to forego the plan of visiting said islands... we went to Covelandia Family Resort. The place was nice. (more on this in another entry)...
During Tita Elsie's birthday party however, we met lots of people, the most unforgettable being Fr. Bok. He's a parish priest of the Our Lady of Lourdes Parish in Salasa, Bugallon, Pangasinan. According to the signs in the church, it was founded in 1714 (could possibly be one of the oldest churches in the country) and is considered a National Shrine. However, I don't know if it's just me, but I've always tagged the phrase "National Shrine" with grandiose architecture and well-maintained interiors. This was not the case with the church we visited. The architecture is good but old age (and most possibly poor maintenance) probably took toll on the building. It still held traces of its former grandeur but it's a very far cry from the shrines here in Manila (some chapels here might even be better off than this). As per Fr. Bok, he and Tito Bob (Tita Elsie's husband... one of Papa's best friends) have been slowly restructuring the shrine. They've dug through the floorings and found antique tiles. (Former priests must have chosen to place new tiles on top of the old ones instead of removing them and then replacing with new ones.) They're prioritizing the church itself, unlike others (I choose not to name any) who opt to start off lavishing the priest's chambers, thus depleting the resources even before actual work on the church begins.
Fr. Bok told us he had lots of plans for the church and its parishioners. However, due to extreme lack of funds (they are situated in a place where people mostly rely on the church for their needs - and this is where most of their funds go to), they could not afford to actuate everything they have in mind...
I'd like to help and in my simple way, I'd try to... and I'd also like to call on people especially the Lourdesians (my sister is one and I believe she's already tried to inform her classmates) to help them in any way they can. A small thing to us may mean the world to them :)
View pics of the church here
Friday, April 4, 2008
feb14.txt
yet another product of boredom... i know this is way way overdue... just had enough idle time to browse my misc folder and found feb14.txt :) hehehe...
from a friend's chatlogs (can't use friend's name... as per friend's request... sana maalala nya pa na sya nagsbai nyan hehe :P) :
friend: oh.. i dunno
friend: isa akong bato ngayon eh
friend: or puno
friend: walang pakiramdam
friend: sumasabay lang sa ihip ng hangin
friend: kuntento na sa onting dilig at sikat ng araw
friend: actually pwede mo na gawan ng tula yan
so pano ba itutuloy? hmm...
isa akong bato ngayon
o puno
walang pakiramdam
sumasabay lang sa ihip ng hangin
kuntento na sa konting dilig at sikat ng araw
walang iniindang sakit o dalamhati
di alintana ang lamig o init
nagmamatyag
at walang imik
nakikiramdam
kahit manhid
tuloy lang sa pagmamasid
sa paghihintay
di kikibo
di gagalaw
tuloy lang...
from a friend's chatlogs (can't use friend's name... as per friend's request... sana maalala nya pa na sya nagsbai nyan hehe :P) :
friend: oh.. i dunno
friend: isa akong bato ngayon eh
friend: or puno
friend: walang pakiramdam
friend: sumasabay lang sa ihip ng hangin
friend: kuntento na sa onting dilig at sikat ng araw
friend: actually pwede mo na gawan ng tula yan
so pano ba itutuloy? hmm...
isa akong bato ngayon
o puno
walang pakiramdam
sumasabay lang sa ihip ng hangin
kuntento na sa konting dilig at sikat ng araw
walang iniindang sakit o dalamhati
di alintana ang lamig o init
nagmamatyag
at walang imik
nakikiramdam
kahit manhid
tuloy lang sa pagmamasid
sa paghihintay
di kikibo
di gagalaw
tuloy lang...
Thursday, March 27, 2008
1
Isang tanong na nagwakas sa simula...
Tuloy?
Isang sagot na nagsimula sa wakas...
Oo.
Bakit?
Kasi...
Bakit?
Ganun.
Bakit?
Basta...
Isa-isa
Pira-piraso
Unti-unti
Umaalis
Nawawala
Sila.
Kayo.
Ako.
Tuloy?
Isang sagot na nagsimula sa wakas...
Oo.
Bakit?
Kasi...
Bakit?
Ganun.
Bakit?
Basta...
Isa-isa
Pira-piraso
Unti-unti
Umaalis
Nawawala
Sila.
Kayo.
Ako.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
mi soliloquio
"Smile and the world smiles with you; weep and you weep alone..."
Someone once told me this, and it has stuck to me since...
But sometimes, smiling just won't do any good...
Stop hiding. Cry your eyes out if you need to...
Drop the act and let go. Give up your mask for even just a second...
Then after that, you can try smiling once again...
:)
Saturday, February 23, 2008
reminiscing azeus ot dinners :D
Just got home from a gt with erika and aimee (sa uulitin! :D).... and during the talk me naalala ko... hehehe... ayun humagalpak uli kami sa tawa.... tatay jo, kung mabasa mo to peace tayo ha? hehe... ikaw mag-aayos ng reunion di ba? :D
okay so on one of those (many) nights na nag OT kami sa Azeus noon, we ordered some dinner from a resto (forgot kung saan e...) and jo was the one who ordered for us (Jojo Ty po ang name nya :D). The conversation wen something like:
Girl: Ano pong name sir?
Jojo: Jojo Ty
Girl: Jojo Dy?
Jojo: Ty
Girl: Ano po un last name?
Jojo: Ty
Girl: Spelling po?
Jojo: T-Y
Girl: Ok po. Pawait na lang po.
After more than an hour of waiting we decided to follow-up. They said it was already delivered and should have arrived already. We then went out to check and found a delivery guy telling the person at the reception that the address stated matched our office. But the person said that there's no such person in the office. Since it was from the same resto we ordered our dinner from, we checked... hoping it was for us. Lo and behold, the name on the receipt was:
"Jojo Tiway"
hehehehe...
Peace tayo tay jo ha! Lilibre mo pa kami sa april! :D
okay so on one of those (many) nights na nag OT kami sa Azeus noon, we ordered some dinner from a resto (forgot kung saan e...) and jo was the one who ordered for us (Jojo Ty po ang name nya :D). The conversation wen something like:
Girl: Ano pong name sir?
Jojo: Jojo Ty
Girl: Jojo Dy?
Jojo: Ty
Girl: Ano po un last name?
Jojo: Ty
Girl: Spelling po?
Jojo: T-Y
Girl: Ok po. Pawait na lang po.
After more than an hour of waiting we decided to follow-up. They said it was already delivered and should have arrived already. We then went out to check and found a delivery guy telling the person at the reception that the address stated matched our office. But the person said that there's no such person in the office. Since it was from the same resto we ordered our dinner from, we checked... hoping it was for us. Lo and behold, the name on the receipt was:
"Jojo Tiway"
hehehehe...
Peace tayo tay jo ha! Lilibre mo pa kami sa april! :D
Thursday, February 14, 2008
of stress, ennui and daydreams...
after weeks of unending pressure and non-stop work, i am left with nearly nothing to do (at least for the day - bukas nakaqueue na silang lahat...)
boredom + lack of sleep = unproductive kaye :)
so, to appease my restless mind (haha!), I, with the help of my very cooperative teammates ;) "researched" on the possible gimmicks we could have :) ... from paintball to karting to boracay getaway :D the possibilities!!! sana lang me matuloy!!! (un bora nga pala tuloy na .. daw :D - sama kayo? heheheh ... friends meet other friends ito :D)
hay... ang nagagawa ng walang magawa :D
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
LSS 2 (and 3) :)
Teanuts!!! kasalanan mo ito!!! :D hehehe... Salamat sa mp3s... meron ka lyrics nung Dumaan Ako? di ko mahanap e... :)
Sa Pagitan ng Ngayon at Kailanman
by Gary Granada
Sabi nga..
Sana ang buhay laging tama o mali
At ang katanunga’y simpleng oo o hindi
Kung ganun dalangin kong ikaw ay mamalagi
Sa pinakatangi mong pinakamimithi
Ngunit paano kung ang hinahanap mong ligaya
Ay nagkataong nalaman mong naroon pala
Sa magkabilang mundong magsinghalaga sa iyo
Paano ba mananatiling totoo
Ang galak at dalamhati ay paano hahatiin
At paano ka pipili kung wala kang pipiliin
Ano ang gagawin ng pusong di mapagbigyan
Ang magkatunggaling pangako at pakiramdam
May isang paruparong paroroo’t paririyan
Sa pagitan ng ngayon at kailanman
Paano ka magpapasya, paano mo mapagkasya
Paano ba mapag-isa ang isa’t isa
Kung isang araw magtalo ang panata’t panaginip
At ang iisa mong puso minsan ay magdal’wang-isip
Sa kalagitnaan ng pag-asa’t pag-asam
Sa dulo’t bungad ng pinagtagpo’t natagpuan
Ibig kong alamin kung ang pag-ibig may puwang
Sa pagitan ng ngayon at kailanman
Ano ang sukatan, alin nga ba ang mas mabigat
Sa isang sugatan, ang tunay ba o ang nararapat
Kung isang araw maghalo..
Ano ang gagawin ng puso kong nahihibang
Na nalilibang, na nagigibang naninimbang
Sa pagitan ng ngayon at kailanman
Sa Pagitan ng Ngayon at Kailanman
by Gary Granada
Sabi nga..
Sana ang buhay laging tama o mali
At ang katanunga’y simpleng oo o hindi
Kung ganun dalangin kong ikaw ay mamalagi
Sa pinakatangi mong pinakamimithi
Ngunit paano kung ang hinahanap mong ligaya
Ay nagkataong nalaman mong naroon pala
Sa magkabilang mundong magsinghalaga sa iyo
Paano ba mananatiling totoo
Ang galak at dalamhati ay paano hahatiin
At paano ka pipili kung wala kang pipiliin
Ano ang gagawin ng pusong di mapagbigyan
Ang magkatunggaling pangako at pakiramdam
May isang paruparong paroroo’t paririyan
Sa pagitan ng ngayon at kailanman
Paano ka magpapasya, paano mo mapagkasya
Paano ba mapag-isa ang isa’t isa
Kung isang araw magtalo ang panata’t panaginip
At ang iisa mong puso minsan ay magdal’wang-isip
Sa kalagitnaan ng pag-asa’t pag-asam
Sa dulo’t bungad ng pinagtagpo’t natagpuan
Ibig kong alamin kung ang pag-ibig may puwang
Sa pagitan ng ngayon at kailanman
Ano ang sukatan, alin nga ba ang mas mabigat
Sa isang sugatan, ang tunay ba o ang nararapat
Kung isang araw maghalo..
Ano ang gagawin ng puso kong nahihibang
Na nalilibang, na nagigibang naninimbang
Sa pagitan ng ngayon at kailanman
Friday, January 25, 2008
merienda buffet!
Remedy Team @ Dad's Saisaki Kamayan
with Roxy.. sarap food! :DLast Wednesday, 23 January 2008, our team went to Dad's Saisaki Kamayan in Glorietta for a merienda buffet... Sobrang sulit! (P157.00 per head - with bottomless drinks - of which I had around 5 glasses of iced tea - 10+1 pa :D) :) hehehe... Their puto-bumbong was superb! The bibingka and other food were also okay :) I ate a lot... I think it could be around 2-3 days of my normal consumption :P heheheh... I ate so much I didn't feel well the next day... napilitan tuloy mag SL! (vince bad ka talaga! kailangan ba iannounce sa india kung bakit ako SL? hehehe)... I ruined my own diet.. owel... may 4 months pa naman before bora e! kaya yan! hehehe...
Sana maulit!!! GL8, Thadde, HP / Azeus pips, tayo rin? hehehe
Ella, thanks for the pics! :D
LSS
just heard it again in the radio this morning.. na LSS ako :D hehehe...
Sundo
by Imago
I.
Kay tagal kong sinusuyod ang buong mundo
Para hanapin, para hanapin ka
Nilibot ang distrito ng iyong lumbay
Pupulutin, pupulutin ka
Rerfrain:
Sinusundo kita,
Sinusundo
Chorus:
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo
II.
Sa akin mo isabit ang pangarap mo
Di kukulangin ang ibibigay
Isuko ang kaba tuluyan kang bumitaw
Ika’y manalig
Manalig ka..
Refrain:
Sinusundo kita
Sinusundo
Chorus:
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo
Handa na sa liwanag mo
Sinuyod ang buong mundo
Maghihintay sayo’ng sundo
:D
Sundo
by Imago
I.
Kay tagal kong sinusuyod ang buong mundo
Para hanapin, para hanapin ka
Nilibot ang distrito ng iyong lumbay
Pupulutin, pupulutin ka
Rerfrain:
Sinusundo kita,
Sinusundo
Chorus:
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo
II.
Sa akin mo isabit ang pangarap mo
Di kukulangin ang ibibigay
Isuko ang kaba tuluyan kang bumitaw
Ika’y manalig
Manalig ka..
Refrain:
Sinusundo kita
Sinusundo
Chorus:
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo
Handa na sa liwanag mo
Sinuyod ang buong mundo
Maghihintay sayo’ng sundo
:D
Monday, November 19, 2007
hectic...
*Sigh* ... had a very hectic weekend (yes, I suck at titles; can't help it though :D)... Last Saturday we had a post birthday and thanksgiving celebration for Kim. I can honestly (and confidently) say that Friday and Saturday would probably be part of the 10 best days of her life :) hehehe.. *wink wink* :) I'm so happy for you! Mwaah!!! So eventhough we had to slave over that day, it was all worth it. I haven't seen her that happy for a while now. She was (a bit?) sad on her birthday that she actually invited us to watch a movie :) (hehehe, yeah, I've seen One More Chance and it's nice... just thought it would be more realistic had they cut the movie somewhere... the ending made it seem they're playing safe... oh well, maybe it's just the bitter side of me talking because my sisters thought it was logical to end it that way) We slept around 1 am so it's understandable that we woke up only around 9am. Then we had to rush because there was a scheduled trip to Nueva Ecija... to check if a family friend could help Kim go to US faster. Unfortunately, it'll also take around 2-3 years for her papers to be processed. Might as well go with a big agency :) ehehehe... A lot of things happened to us yesterday (Sunday) but I won't give out any details ... since nothing is final yet... but one thing's for sure, it'll change my life, hopefully for the better. (No, it does not concern me going abroad though I'd surely want to :P)
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Thursday, October 4, 2007
question
a friend asked me if like, love, and inspiration always go hand in hand. when you like / love someone, does he have to inspire you? and if you don't get inspired with that someone, does that mean you don't like / love him? (i know that if someone inspires you, it does not equal to you actually liking / loving that person :D i can say that a certain person's success inspired me to do something about my own life... it doesn't necessarily mean i love that person... he / she may just be some random individual i happen to look up to... i might not even know him / her personally :P)
it made me think ... and think... but i still can't figure it out. :P
any ideas? heheheh...
Monday, September 17, 2007
...
While waiting in line for the FX to MRT, I don't know what happened. I don't know why but out of nowhere, I thought of you... and I suddenly started crying...
When you left, I was devastated. I should've expected it. You said goodbye but I ignored it, thinking it was just one of your whims. And then you were gone...
You were my bestfriend, my confidante. You were always there to comfort me. Always ready to encourage me. We made promises. We dreamt of great things. (I'm trying to achieve them. I know you know that.) You taught me a lot of things in life and I will forever cherish them.
I miss you Lolo.
When you left, I was devastated. I should've expected it. You said goodbye but I ignored it, thinking it was just one of your whims. And then you were gone...
You were my bestfriend, my confidante. You were always there to comfort me. Always ready to encourage me. We made promises. We dreamt of great things. (I'm trying to achieve them. I know you know that.) You taught me a lot of things in life and I will forever cherish them.
I miss you Lolo.
Monday, September 3, 2007
how?
Note: This should apply to both sexes but for the purpose of this post I'll just be using the pronouns he, his, and him. (It's too troublesome to always type he/she, his/her, him/her.) :P
How exactly do you know if someone likes you? How indeed? Should you observe him and his actions and reactions? Should you watch out for any differences in the way he treats you (compared to how he treats and acts around others)? If he "showers" you with attention (calls, texts, messages, the likes), does that mean you're special? Should you try and catch if he's stealing glances? Should you take his being chivalrous and gentlemanly as signs that he fancies you?
But what if all these things are normal to him? What if he's just being nice and by thinking he likes you, you're actually just fooling yourself? What if you're just pushing yourself further into a trap… one that is of unrequited love?
No matter what the "signs" are, one could never fully read another person's feelings. Emotions and the human heart are way, way more complex than even the most intricate books. They're simply designed to be confusing and unpredictable.
One should not make any assumptions (on just about anything) unless explicitly stated. You just don't know if you're right or wrong. And by the time you figure it out, you'd probably be too caught up in your make-believe world to face reality... or in too much of an agony in a hell you yourself built.
So, how do you tell if someone likes you? Simple... you can't.
How exactly do you know if someone likes you? How indeed? Should you observe him and his actions and reactions? Should you watch out for any differences in the way he treats you (compared to how he treats and acts around others)? If he "showers" you with attention (calls, texts, messages, the likes), does that mean you're special? Should you try and catch if he's stealing glances? Should you take his being chivalrous and gentlemanly as signs that he fancies you?
But what if all these things are normal to him? What if he's just being nice and by thinking he likes you, you're actually just fooling yourself? What if you're just pushing yourself further into a trap… one that is of unrequited love?
No matter what the "signs" are, one could never fully read another person's feelings. Emotions and the human heart are way, way more complex than even the most intricate books. They're simply designed to be confusing and unpredictable.
One should not make any assumptions (on just about anything) unless explicitly stated. You just don't know if you're right or wrong. And by the time you figure it out, you'd probably be too caught up in your make-believe world to face reality... or in too much of an agony in a hell you yourself built.
So, how do you tell if someone likes you? Simple... you can't.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
graduate studies?
just got another friendster mail from sir lounell... he asked me why i kept on shifting from one company to another (3rd pa lang naman a :D --> mobot batchmates, applicable din daw question na ito sa inyo :D)... and told me to also consider pursuing graduate studies... it made me remember that i actually was intending to take a post-graduate degree... (mimi, game?) just haven't decided if i'd take ms ee, mba, or law. hmmm... yet another thing to think about...
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