que sera sera...?

"Happiness isn’t having what you want---it’s all about wanting what you have…"
Wow. I still can’t decide if I believe this or not.

But if you want something, you can work for it and thus by achieving it, you also obtain happiness, right? So does it mean there's no limit to the happiness one can have? That it all depends on how much effort one puts into getting what he / she wants? But why is it that there are times when no matter how hard you struggle, you still don't get what you want? Is there such a thing as predetermined future? If there is, then what's the point of trying and trying? If there is such a thing as destiny, and you're destined to fail, then regardless of your hard work, you're still doomed. Why even try??? Wouldn’t it make our lives pointless?

So, now, why are there people who seem to be “destined” to be alone? And why are there people who seem to have been born with all the luxury one could ask for… all the blessings one could be given (oh, the fortunate ones…)? Who decides who gets which destiny? Isn’t there anything we can do about it? (But if you believe in destiny, there’s nothing to do but accept it, right? Because it’s the “universe’s natural order”.) But how exactly do we know which of the things happening to us are destined to occur? How the heck would we know if we’re actually going against what’s predetermined for us?

Hmmm… Do I believe in destiny? I still don't know... I let it rule over my life for a long time… nothing happened. And I’m too much of a coward to try and go against it (that is, if I’m not actually destined to not do anything about it…).

Confusing! :)

graduate studies?

just got another friendster mail from sir lounell... he asked me why i kept on shifting from one company to another (3rd pa lang naman a :D --> mobot batchmates, applicable din daw question na ito sa inyo :D)... and told me to also consider pursuing graduate studies... it made me remember that i actually was intending to take a post-graduate degree... (mimi, game?) just haven't decided if i'd take ms ee, mba, or law. hmmm... yet another thing to think about...

happily-ever-afters

“And they lived happily ever after… The End.” Almost all fairytales end that way. After the hero or heroine (most of the time the latter) suffers, then comes his / her rewards… They usually come in the form of a prince for a husband (or a princess for Aladdin’s case), a kingdom to rule on and probably everything and anything he / she could wish for. But does it really end there?

Did the prince really love Sleeping Beauty considering she may be a century older than him (she’s probably older than his great grandmother! It may not show but still…)? Wouldn’t their beliefs clash (It’s been a hundred years… a lot must have changed)? How about Snow White? Would any sane girl willingly spend the rest of her life with a necrophile? He’d probably try and get her to eat another one of those blasted apples for all she knows… And Cinderella? Someone like her must have developed an obsessive compulsive nature and she just moved to a place probably ten (or more) times bigger… a palace! And how about her animal friends? Would they really be allowed inside?

Most of us have grown up watching Disney films and loving every character…wishing that someday we’ll have the same fates… (Of course we’re talking about the heroes and heroines who had their happily-ever-afters. Who’d want to end up like Malificent or the Evil Stepmother anyway?) But are they even close to what’s happening in real life? Or are we just fooling ourselves with the belief that everyone has a happy ending waiting for them? Say you found someone to spend the rest of your life with. Does it really end with the “I do”s? Of course not. Will everyone get a happy-ending? Probably not… Well, it depends on what you consider as “The End”.

fairytales

found one of my old files... written last nov 2006... here's an abridged version of it.

I’ve always loved fairytales… As a child, I even asked Santa for a book filled with fairytales… and I got it :) The notion of a prince coming to a girl’s rescue or of love conquering all obstacles just appeal to me… Or maybe that should be “appealed”… Yes, I am past that disillusioned state. Somewhere along my teenage years, I’ve gone from the girl going giddy over a silly tale to the very cynical person I am now. I always loved love stories… I still do. But now, I finally understand that those things, the knight-rescues-damsel-in-distress stuff and those happily ever afters, they don’t really happen in real life… at least not to me… They make good plots for books, stories, movies, but not in my world, not in my life…

I’m no princess… I know that. I’ve long ago given up the idea that a Prince Charming will come my way and instead resigned myself to the fate of being alone. You can’t blame me. I have waited long enough. Sure, the other fairytale princesses didn’t get to meet their princes right from the start… but that’s just it. They ARE princesses. I simply am not. It’s harder to wait for something, to hope or dream for someone when you know for a fact that there’s a very big chance he won’t come… Sure, Rapunzel waited long enough for her hair to grow that long and Sleeping Beauty waited a hundred years. But Rapunzel was stuck in a tower. She didn’t have an inkling of what was happening in the outer world. She didn’t get tormented with seeing the man she’s pining for chase another girl nor did she had the chance to attend a party and feel totally left-out. She didn’t have friends who constantly remind her of her loneliness (they may not really mean it… they might not even be aware of it). And Sleeping Beauty? Well, she was SLEEPING through the years of waiting!!! And the moment she woke up, there he was… already waiting for her! How convenient is that?!? And what about me? My prince probably got stuck in a labyrinth… doomed never to find his way out. Or worse, he could have found some other princess while he was on his quest to find me and he decided to go and have his ‘happily-ever-after’ with her… But no matter what I say, it still boils down to the question: Have I really accepted a life alone? Or am I just saying it to try and convince myself? I don’t know… I won’t be waiting for my prince to come knocking on my door… but I’ll still keep my half of the glass slipper just in case he did get to my part of the town and still has his half waiting for mine…

long weekend

so many things to do... so little time! :D
last night, had a get together with some friends (hopefully maulit :) and sana pati ibang friends magkaget together din :) ) and got home around 2 am. i thought the whole night would end well... but alas, malas ako!!! ahehehe... while entering the driveway, i didn't notice a protruding sharp end of the planter box in our gate and unfortunately got my right rear tire cut. hay... good thing may reserba... owel... have to buy a new tire ... :(

just today, we watched shutter ... hay... kagulat! :D

hmmm... ano kaya magawa bukas? :D

hmmm... ? or ?

given the choice, who will you go for (if you can't have both)? the one you love or the one who loves you? most of my friends answered the former. call me selfish, but as of this very moment, i think i'd go for the latter. don't get me wrong... if i can have both, then by all means... :) but maybe i just got tired of waiting for the one i love that i'd now probably opt for the one who loves me ...

at last!!!

at last!!! i've been meaning to get a blog eons ago but as always, i've placed it low on my priorities... but since i have a bit of free time, why not try? :)

just gonna share random thoughts on random things... comments are most welcome! :)