downloadable movies, shows... almost everything :D

I learned something new today. I learned of the beauty of the site http://www.tv-links.co.uk/

Okay, okay... most people probably know about it already but heck, I don't care!!! I can watch and download a lot of things here... (hehehe... they have Naruto and Death Note among other anime :D) and the file size is significantly smaller (I got Heroes Season 2 ep. 1 at approximately 121 MB) without compromising the video quality.... I'm raving I know... can't help it though.... :D

phone suggestions? :D

Last Saturday, we went around looking for phones. :) I did some asking around and net browsing beforehand so more or less I had an idea of the units I'm looking for. But alas, as expected the one I like the most is still not available here, and they have no idea when it will be released. :( At first I thought I could wait... but last night (and early today), my phone gave another sign that it won't last that long... I'd probably have to buy one as soon as I get my last pay from HP (sheesh it's already been 2 months!!!). So far my choices are: SE K850 (but it's still not available), SE K800 or K810, Samsung D900i, U600, U300... still looking for other units. The Samsung units are slide phones... any bad inputs on that? Erika said it isn't advisable to get one since it might have problems :( So I'm considering flip phones :D ehehehe... any suggestions?

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While waiting in line for the FX to MRT, I don't know what happened. I don't know why but out of nowhere, I thought of you... and I suddenly started crying...

When you left, I was devastated. I should've expected it. You said goodbye but I ignored it, thinking it was just one of your whims. And then you were gone...

You were my bestfriend, my confidante. You were always there to comfort me. Always ready to encourage me. We made promises. We dreamt of great things. (I'm trying to achieve them. I know you know that.) You taught me a lot of things in life and I will forever cherish them.

I miss you Lolo.

Block GL8 :D

Saya saya! Sana maulit! :D Erika, thanks for the pics! :D

fade

You have loved him/her for so long, dreamt of things that could have been. But you've accepted that that's all they're going to be: dreams, a part of your make-believe world - a far cry from reality. You want to stop. But how?

How do you make IT fade? How do you tell yourself to stop when everything you do reminds you of him/her? How will you find someone else when you compare everyone to him/her? (when in fact, you know you shouldn't... s/he's not that great of a person anyway... s/he didn't see your worth :P) And for some weird reason, for you, they just don't seem to measure up...

How will you find your Wind when you're still clinging to Tree?

(*Wind and Tree were taken from an email sent to me before... I believe the title is something like "Love in 3 Perspectives" Tree, Leaf, Wind... don't know the writer though...)

complicated

Why does it have to be so complicated? You know how hard it is to get hurt, yet you unwillingly inflict the same pain to others... Why do we have to ignore the ones who adore us and adore the one who ignores us?

And when you finally decide to "give up", why does it hurt so much? Why does it feel like you lost someone when in fact you never really "had" him/her?

You keep on telling yourself that someday you'll find the right one... one who'll appreciate your worth. But do "somedays" really come? What if the right one turns out to be one of those you chose to ignore? What then?

Complicated...

titles?

ok.. just found my computer file of poems and my notebook of poems and essays... found out that most (if not all :P) of my works are untitled... (and i placed untitled1, untitled2,...) i'll post some here (those that aren't too personal... heheheh...) and if you have any ideas, title suggestions are most welcome :D

1)

Once I dreamt of flying high
And being able to touch the sky
Then I dreamt of corals rare
That their beauty in my eyes they'll bare

I also dreamt of flowers in bloom
Serenading me with all sorts of tunes
(I then dreamt of a snow in June
Caressing me once in a blue moon)

Then I dreamt of having you
And I knew they won't come true...

Conqueror of dreams, take over me
Spare me the misery and the agony
Of knowing my dreams will never be
For I am just another me...

2)

The audience silently applauded
as the curtains drew to a close
The spotlight slowly faded
as the actors parted ways

Go on, unmask yourself
the show is over
the masquerade has finally ended...

how?

Note: This should apply to both sexes but for the purpose of this post I'll just be using the pronouns he, his, and him. (It's too troublesome to always type he/she, his/her, him/her.) :P


How exactly do you know if someone likes you? How indeed? Should you observe him and his actions and reactions? Should you watch out for any differences in the way he treats you (compared to how he treats and acts around others)? If he "showers" you with attention (calls, texts, messages, the likes), does that mean you're special? Should you try and catch if he's stealing glances? Should you take his being chivalrous and gentlemanly as signs that he fancies you?

But what if all these things are normal to him? What if he's just being nice and by thinking he likes you, you're actually just fooling yourself? What if you're just pushing yourself further into a trap… one that is of unrequited love?

No matter what the "signs" are, one could never fully read another person's feelings. Emotions and the human heart are way, way more complex than even the most intricate books. They're simply designed to be confusing and unpredictable.

One should not make any assumptions (on just about anything) unless explicitly stated. You just don't know if you're right or wrong. And by the time you figure it out, you'd probably be too caught up in your make-believe world to face reality... or in too much of an agony in a hell you yourself built.

So, how do you tell if someone likes you? Simple... you can't.

thadde! :D

thadde!!! grabe saya kagabi! thanks thanks!!! sa uulitin... missed you guys! penge pics ha? :D

Hope - Dream - Agony

Hope likes Agony... a lot. She's willing to do anything for him, always hoping he'll acknowledge her existence someday. He, however, disregards her all too quickly. He ignores her completely. After all, he has eyes only for Dream. She's everything he wants. For him, she's perfect... but he is to Dream as Hope is to him... nothing.

Why can't life be simple? Why can't Dream be Hope so that Agony won't be in, yes, agony? If everyone really has a choice, wouldn't it be easier if Agony just goes and chooses Hope? Wouldn't it make him happier? But alas, for him, the only way to happiness is in Dream's arms. But he couldn't have that now, could he? Because as her name states, she will only be a dream to him... someone he yearns for but could never have. He wants to let go and move on but he simply can't. He's lost without her. Without Dream, he feels empty, void. And he hates that feeling, loathes it even. However, he can't reach out to her... afraid that if he does, she'll leave his side completely, abandoning him in the darkness. And if he loses his light, he might lose any chance he has of ever getting out of the chaotic maze he submerged himself in.

Perhaps he could find his way out with Hope's help... but she's not bright enough for him. Her light is nothing compared to Dream's.

He knows she's hurting. He's the one causing her pain... the same ones Dream's mere presence caused him. He is Hope's Dream... torturing her with his every action. Yet, she still keeps on holding onto him... so he does the same... hoping that someday, she'll get him out of his misery.

For he, himself, knows the painful truth: He'll never have her because she's a dream that's way beyond Agony’s reach...